I’ve been comparing this year to 2019; a lot.
2019 was my Golden Year, my dreams-come-true year. The Year that I accomplished so much, worked hard and realized a few things.
My Mantra for 2019 was: take each adventure as it comes and be open to all possibilities.
I need to remember this.
Reading through my 2019 journals I had dark days and great days. I was training, working hard and realizing some goals.
In 2023, I have accomplished non-athletic goals and am trying to come to terms with aging, menopause and homeownership. All very difficult and similar to chasing an athletic goal. It’s about mindset but mindset training is very hard.
But at the end of the day, I’m an athlete. I love to be outside. I love having dogs. I’m always looking toward the future, figuring out who I want to be and where I want to live.
I still think I can do everything; and it still frustrates me when I can’t.
The question isn’t can I have it all, the question is, what do I want that I can still have.
One thing missing in my life, which I’ve always had in every place I lived, is a Go-To place to walk with my dogs. I don’t have this right now. I have a fenced-in yard which is nice, but not a woodsy place to go. I have to drive 10 minutes to go anywhere. This is what I have to work on.
“For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. Jeremiah 29:11
This month I said goodbye to my Subaru. It has been across the country twice, Colorado to Arizona twice. It got me to Tennessee safely and never let me down. 181,935 miles. You were a good car.